January 2012
1 post
December 2011
1 post
September 2011
2 posts
So I don’t write here much because I really don’t write anymore. But for those of you who follow here is a special treat inside my soul.
I moved to a small little town in northern California after living my entire life in a bigger city in southern california. I am used to having friends and people who care about me around 24/7 and for the past year, I have not had that. I have lived...
August 2011
4 posts
2 tags
Jerry Brito: Top ten myths about introverts →
jerrybrito:
Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk. This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy. Shyness has nothing to…
I don’t know if angry or hurt best describes how I feel right now.
I miss
being surrounded by a community of queers all day everyday.
July 2011
3 posts
I really really really wish facebook had an option for single and fucking every girl in sight, either in my mind, or in my bed, or in the dressing room, or the park, or the car, or where ever the fuck I want because I
I really really really wish facebook had an option for single and fucking every girl in sight, either in my mind, or in my bed, or in the dressing room, or the park, or the car, or where ever the fuck I want because I am fucking single and am no longer tied down to someone who didnt give a fuck for me for the past two years.
June 2011
4 posts
safe
You keep tryin to get inside my head, While I keep trying to lose the words you said Can’t you see I’m hangin by a thread, To my life what I know, yeah I’m losing control and Oh no, my walls are gonna break So close, its more than I can take I’m so tired of turning and running away When love ju—st isn’t safe (your not safe, mmm-mm) I’m strong...
when i was a kid
my parents fought a lot, and my dad hated when i cried about it. so my mom taught me to hum it out until i stopped crying.
today when me and my girlfriend fight, i try an hum it out and it only lead to panic attacks.
this is my hell.
So I don't write here as much as I would like.
I wish I wrote more, or had the drive to write more, but it has been awhile since I have put much effort into writing. I think it all started when I started writing for pay vs pleasure. There are a million other reasons why I am sure, but sometimes I feel that I do not have a safe place to write a lot of the time, but for now this will have to do. I am someone who grew up with dreams of going...
May 2011
1 post
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– Neutrois Nonsense: I need one of those shirts like the “No one knows I’m a lesbian” shirts, only it should say “No one knows I’m a boy.”
March 2011
3 posts
February 2011
1 post
January 2011
4 posts
iragray asked: do you know what it's called by chance?
until we are all equal: i'm currently attempting... →
iragray:
i still don’t qualify for the fafsa, so that’s depressing. i don’t have a car, so i don’t really have access to schools here. so, i requested an information package from devry (inorite), and i got a call this morning. the lady is tricky! she’s a sales person if i ever met one. we were totally…
Look into university of phoenix. They don’t make you pay to apply and they do...
i got bored at work
1. how old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? at least 25 2. if you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? love is love 3. is it possible to lie without saying a word? yes, no response is just the same as a lie. 4. if not now, then when? tomorrow at noon 5. what would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? I...
new years res
drop 65 pounds
quit smoking
buy a motorcycle
propose [for realsies]
eat better
be nicer to people, even when they are being dumb/rude/annoying
December 2010
8 posts
someone
make my ears stop ringing and my nose stop running. and the blood coming from them both go away. thanks :]
exes
Just found out my ex lives 15 min away from me, and literally a block from my old place. we have never lived this close to each other even when we dated. and it feels odd.
you know what really grinds my gears
having a girlfriend who seemingly doesn’t care about my feelings, even though I somehow care for everything she is feeling at any given time. WTF?
everything hurts.
Happiness.
What is it. Why does it matter. Why is it such a big deal. I am finally getting set up. I was kicked out 4 months ago to the day. I was homeless for the first two, living out of my car, because my girlfriend couldn’t take me into her parent’s place.. I found a place and thought having a roof over my head would make me happy, but it wasn’t enough. So, I started school, thinking...
November 2010
1 post
“When the highwayman holds his gun to your head, you turn your valuables over to...”
– Alexander Berkman (via iragray)
October 2010
7 posts
I want to drive home this weekend, just so i dont have to spend what would be my one year anniversary with my partner alone with a bottle. to bad i dont have gas money to drive 800 miles round trip to do it.
sometimes
we are in the same room, sitting at the same table, but in completely different worlds. and it makes me want to throw up. that also might be the fact that im sure my appendix is about to burst, but only because thats what the doc said last time i had these pains.
me- my lower right quad of my torso hurts like a bitch
doc- lets get an xray
after xray
doc- looks like you need your appendix...
I have never in my life felt so unwanted unloved and alone in my entire life. I even started talking to myself. I am a freak officially. I think its time I stop trying to make this work sell what I can and come home, and just beg to move back in.
national coming out day recap
I couldn’t even come out to completely online faceless strangers how will i ever be able to come out to my real life friends and family.
September 2010
1 post
Lets be real
I dont believe in any sort of god, but more so many paths to get to any god, or happiness.